grateful

1, 2, 3 :)

Too many things to praise the Lord about. Also too many things I still have to finish by tonight. I'm attempting a scholarship application for Berkeley...I wonder if I'll get accepted? Either way, the whole process of applying and selling oneself is intriguing and educational and I suppose the fact that my family has the means to pay for all those college applications and that I am eligible to apply for scholarships and that I have somehow taken on "leadership roles" in my few high school years to become an unconventional but fitting candidate for one or the other of the things I am working on; all this and more is something to be happy and thankful about.

Also, I find it difficult to keep up with an online blog and physical diary at the same time. Whenever I have a lapse in updating this thing, I'm usually committed to my Quo Vadis, and vice versa. I hope I can find a happy medium--both of these are useful and beyond helpful in documenting myself, I'm just not really sure which is best for what purpose.

Time to check up on my subscriptions, shower, write for my scholarship (bah), do statistics homework, study for physics...study some more for physics, and hopefully figure out how I'm going to complete both my AP portfolio and yearbook in time for the respective deadlines.

Ack.

day eighteen

Something you crave a lot

A film SLR...which surprisingly, I received in the mail today :). Thank you Victor! He's lending me his 50mm lens and giving me the extra AE-1 he bought--I'm so, so psyched to test it out (I actually already played with it a bit and cleaned parts of it, but no where to the extent that I plan on)!!!

Another thing I'm craving is the iPhone 4 for Verizon, WHICH AS OF TODAY HAS A RESERVED QUANTITY THAT IS PURCHASABLE FOR CURRENT VERIZON CUSTOMERS and my brother bought me one at 3am today, when it went on sale online! I don't know what I'm more excited about at the moment, this camera or my new phone. My goodness.

But to put a damper on today, the report card I received yesterday afternoon was flawed :(. I noticed that my AP Statistics teacher curved our midterm grade, which was incredibly kind and bumped me up back into the 90s (I was doing fine until just recently so I sort of felt like it was appropriate), BUT I became aware that it was an accident today, and I do think she changed it back. Which is actually very upsetting since I perceived my grades as fairly strong with that one in the 90s, but after the drop I can't help but feel sad, if not disappointed.

Yet at the same time, it really is the grade I deserve. And I'm writing a scholarship essay on dishonesty, so this is fitting. Even though I was not dishonest, in all honesty, I'm lucky to have an 88 with the effort I lacked at the end of the marking period (although I studied 5+ hours for the midterms...sigh).

Time to trust in God--or should I say: a reminder that I need to trust in God always and less in my academic transcript.

OKAY but I cannot trust God to delay my scholarship deadline that I've just barely become eligible to apply to, so OFF I GO. Forty-five minutes until its submission!

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PS, I can't believe I forgot this; Happy Chinese New Year, of course! :))

PPS, If this challenge q was asking about food: avocados and mashed potatoes.

unprepared

1) Decided to bail out of applying to two scholarships I was actually excited for. My fault, mostly since it snowed and I didn't ask for a copy of my recommendation letter earlier...

but!

1a) I decided to take my own initiative after feeling horrible about dropping possible prize monies and looked on our guidance website to find other scholarships. I'm feeling this. Went through all the February deadline ones and am going to (hopefully) apply to as many as possible. I want to help cushion that horrible FAFSA blow (see a few posts below).

2) I was finishing A Rope and A Prayer in bed this morning and when I finally did get out from under the covers to use the bathroom, I spot a stinkbug on the ground. So I kill/suffocate/tape it and use the bathroom. Then I return to my bed...and oh my goodness there's a flailing, stinkbug limping around on my sheets, with three of its legs detached and scattered around the area.

I almost fainted.

Either:

2i) I was the one who smashed part of it, or

2ii) I was the one who smashed part of it.

Yeah not a really fun discovery. It also stank up part of my sheets. I sprayed perfume (should have rethought this because it is so strong and I hate how "good" it smells, it's nauseating) on the spots but I can still catch a whiff once in a while.

3) Washing machine is broken.

So this explains why the stinkbug scenario is even more horrifying than usual...because I can't wash my sheets (or my clothes, or anything for that matter) until we buy a new washing machine. Which also costs lots of monies. Which we don't have since we're trying to save for my college fun. Which brings me back to point one.

4) On the bright (bright?) side, my interview for today was just canceled. So if I did want to finish filling out that scholarship application listed in point one, which I partially dropped because I thought I wouldn't have time to find the pieces I wanted to use and also write an essay, I would have time to. Except I already emailed my college counselor apologizing and basically saying never mind.

Bah.

5) It is a snow day. No complaints about that.

So all in all, I haven't really done anything today except get slightly traumatized and finish a book. I think I'm going to do my Statistics homework now and get it over with...that or take a nap. Eep I really need to be productive. I really want to be productive.

Anywhoo, ciao for now :)