in retrospect,

I have no idea how I did.

Blah.

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Came home from school (directly against what I proposed for myself yesterday, ha) but then picked myself back up and drove to Purebread, where I ordered my normal Akita panini and small Chai. Something that I recently realized is that if I don't go to UD for school, I am definitely going to miss the small cafes and eateries around Hockessin. I'm sure all colleges have their own, but I've grown so fond of my favorites that it's a bit sad to think about. Not to mention I dearly love the placement of my house--close to church, close to the gym (heh), close to the library, close to parks, close to the best ice cream parlor on the East Coast (I am just the talking advertisement today, aren't I), close to my friends, and the perfect distance from both Northern DE malls. Close enough to make a trip without hassle, far enough to squash any temptation to shop every week.

Yet, even if I do go to UD, there's always the impending realization that my parents plan to move. As my dad works a good hour-and-a-half drive away, the possibility of moving to North Wilmington has always been a reality...and if I end up in California for school, my parents are set on retiring there.

Which means I'll lose a home in dainty Hockessin. No place to come back to after I graduate, no place to stay when visiting WCEC, my home church. A bit depressing.

But! Life goes on, and we would have to remodel our current home before that would ever happen--and remodeling will take a good few years--so I'm not too absorbed by this thought.

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Anywho, I did manage to rewrite my French essay (I got an 8 [my French writing is apparently stronger than my English writing, how strange is that?] so it was a bit pointless, but required nonetheless) and finish a take-home Discrete test while I was at Purebread. Good stuff. The sun was also directly streaming in onto the table where I was sitting, so I had a nice hour or so of pure warmth. And then I stepped outside.

Now...I should probably get back to work, but knowing my priorities, I'm probably going to watch a few episodes of Modern Family prior to starting. Which means I'm going to take a nap. Which means I'm not going to get anything started until 9pm.

Yay for self knowledge!

new life

This week has been fairly horrible, but! the later part of today probably makes up for everything. Anyway, I'm becoming more of an optimistic thinker.

- I didn't win a portfolio award for the Scholastics competition, but my Haiti piece that I'm gifting to someone next week did win a merit award!

- I also discovered that the reason why none of my other pieces had received awards is because unlike past years, this time the judges aren't pulling pieces out of portfolios to be adjudicated, which makes total sense. Not that I believe all my artwork is A+ quality, but I did spend an awful lot of time on some of them, which I thought would earn me a few keys :(.

- This means that my midterm grade will not automatically be a C, since the art teachers will be looking over everyone's portfolio a second time to see the quality of work, since the original "how-many-awards-you-win-determines-your-midterm-grade" policy is nullified due to the new judging rule.

But anyway,

- I got out of school early because it's an A-day...awesome.

- I ate at PureBread for lunch--I've been craving their Akita Panini for something like three weeks. It was the most gratifying meal I've had in quite some time. Akita's the first thing I tried there, and the only thing I've had there as a result. Portobella mushrooms serve as thee perfect "meat" to a sandwich.

- While I was at PureBread, I happened to have a spare piece of paper and pen in my wristlet, thus was able to plan out in what direction my AP Art portfolio is going. It seems like I have much time, but I know I need to keep chugging along in order to make this work. I'm going to get a 5. I have to.

- Went to A.C. Moore and found the perfect sized canvas for the next piece I had in mind. Although I had to wait an extra 15 minutes in line because I realized my canvas packaging was ripped, it was worth it because!

- It's snowing!

(However, I almost died twice sliding on the ice...I've never driven in the snow before, actually.)

- You know how when a steady flurry begins and the snow dust on the road flies around as cars drive on it due to heat/wind/not being wet and slushy/etc.? I'm not sure for the actual reasoning behind this, but I think it's the coolest, most beautiful thing ever. It's like the snow has a personality, but it also reminds me of chocolate swirls at the same time. I don't think I'm being coherent. I wish I had brought my video Nano with me to take some footage.

- After getting home, I took Abu for a walk! He hasn't had exercise of that sort in...yeah this is embarrassing to admit, but anyway, it was well-deserved. He's a good boy :).

And now I'm home. It's just hitting 3pm, and I may/may not have an art lesson tonight depending on the snow...nonetheless, I'm going to take a break and watch some Psych and work out the details of my next oil piece. So excited!

(If my productivity level continues to grow from when my motivation began last night, I think I'll be superwoman by the time winter break is over. Crossed fingers! I really need momentum.)